Sweetheart, you don’t even know the half of it. And congratulations, you just opened one of my infamous floodgates.

Crying is not even the word. I weep. I sob. My heart breaks a little bit more every time I take a step outside of Denial Land and realize that the end of Seeing Red actually did happen and that Willow had to continue living a life without Tara. Tara was the light in Willow’s life. After she died, it was like every moon crumbled into pieces and every star imploded into a black hole. Everything fell apart and she was pulled in so many different directions: hate, rage, grief. Every good feeling she had ever felt was taken away in the blink of an eye. Something, isn’t it? One tiny piece of metal destroys everything.

Willow and Tara’s love is exactly how Buffy described Xander and Anya’s love: beautiful and miraculous. It’s the kind of love that makes you realize the world isn’t such a cruel place after all. It’s something to strive for. Even though they’re fictional- and far from perfect- it’s the kind of love that makes you realize that fate and soulmates are real and that these two people were made for each other. And to think about the fact that someone- fictional or not- has to live without a part of their soul for the rest of their days is enough to bring me to tears.